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As I looked into the bathroom mirror I just felt was disgust with myself. Without thinking, I raised my fist and smashed it into the glass mirror, blood and glass rained down but i felt nothing.
I felt absolutely nothing, nothing at all, no pain, no joy, nothing it was just emptiness. I was empty and worth nothing and I felt hatred for myself. I saw broken pieces of glass hanging off the mirror frame and I saw myself staring back, shattered and broken on the inside.
Why did I ever get involved with him, if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have done drugs, done Crystal Meth, I would be partying and stressing over simple things and meeting a boy. I would be studying and doing forensic studies, working toward the best job but then I met him... Ryder.... …show more content…
And still I felt nothing, no pain. So I grabbed it with my left hand and slashed it through my right wrist and I quickly did the other side, feeling nothing but blankness inside, before sitting on the floor against the wall.
My hands were covered in blood from smashing the window and my hands were cut from the broken mirror and as I indefinitely held my hands up the blood cascaded from my wrists and down my arm, onto my clothes, I watched it with a dull fascination. There was so much blood all over my arms and on the floor. As I watched it the world around me went blurrier and the longer it got blurrier I then realised something.
I was about to die.
As each drop of crimson blood dropped from my wrist like a gushing waterfall, the realisation that I had just killed myself kicked in. Memories flashed through my mind of all the good times I had with my 5 year old sister and family and friends. As the memories flashed, my eyes watered because I couldn't move, and soon, too soon those memories would fade to nothing, I will be nothing but an empty body, an empty body put in the ground like thousands of

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