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Leaving Unbelief and Promiscuity to Finding Jesus When I was 21 years old, I began to have a desire to get closer to God. Having grown up in the Catholic Church, I figured that getting back to weekly mass was the best place to start. I was dating a girl at the time, and we were involved sexually. I knew this was against the will of God, and I wanted to stop, but it's pretty hard to quit. One night I told my girlfriend that I didn't want to have sex anymore. After that, our relationship lasted about a week. I felt good about my decision, but I knew I still needed to ask God to forgive me for having sex outside of marriage. I decided to go to confession. I told the priest what I'd done. He asked if I used protection when I had sex. I asked him if he meant a condom. He said yeah. I said yes. He said that it was O.K., as long as I use a condom. I walked out of that church a happy man. I resumed my sexual activities. A few months later, however, the guilt returned. I knew it was wrong, condom or not. I stopped having sex, and decided that I would try not to have sex until I got married. A friend of mine invited me to Horizon Christian Fellowship in San Diego. Having never studied nor read the Bible (or been encouraged to by the Catholic church), I enjoyed the sermons very much. I heard the gospel and understood it, and believed it, but I wasn't ready to repent (change my ways). I thought I was cool with God, since I wasn't having sex anymore. Then I heard the Sermon on the Mount from Matthew chapter 5-7. Jesus said that if you lust after or fantasize about women, it's just as bad as committing adultery, as far as God's concerned. I'd stopped having sex, but I hadn't stopped lusting after girls, or fantasizing. I figured that if I set my mind to it, I could probably (maybe & hopefully) hold out from having sex until I got married. This was a possibility. But I knew that

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