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I’m a crybaby. I cry a lot, I complain a lot. Minsan niloloko pa ako dahil ang babaw babaw ng luha ko. I have an idea na talaga na ganun yung mangyayari, I even told myself na “parang retreat siguro ito kaya sinabi ni Ma’am na paiiyakin kami next meeting.” Hinanda ko na ang sarili ko sa mangyayari, but things happen unexpectedly, I just found myself crying simula palang.

Simula ng tumuntong ako sa elementary, unti-unti ring lumalayo ang loob ko kina Mommy at Daddy. Hanggang sa nag high school ako at halos wala na silang alam sa buhay ko. I never share secrets to them, sinasarili ko lang lahat, mula sa sinasabi ng iba sa akin, hanggang sa mga ups and downs ko sa pag-aaral. Siguro kasi lagi silang busy kaya ayaw ko ng dagdagan pa yung pinoproblema nila. Gaya ni Ma’am napaka strikto rin ng magulang ko, dapat ganito, dapat ganiyan, there even comes a time na I feel like I was under their shadows. Nasasakal ako sa kanila, naiinis ako sa kanila, I even told myself “I hate them!” ang sama kong anak, and I admit it. Sa kabila ng sakripisyo nila sa akin, ganun pa yung iniisip at sinasabi ko sa kanila. I’m selfish, I’m self-centered because of the things that happen to me. Hindi naman sila nagkulang sa pagpapa-alala sakin eh, I know that they were there pero may something na gusto kong maramdaman mula sa kanila, it was their support at yung konting words of encouragement man lang. Maraming mga bagay ang pumapasok sa isip ko, na kesyo bakit ba ang higpit ni daddy, kung bakit na kesyo parang may favoritism sila, even to the point of asking myself if they really love me. Nag-isip akong magrebelde sa kanila, I’ll enumerate the things I hate ‘bout them… but I’ll just end up writing the things showing how much they love me, how much they care for me, and that by the end of the day sa kabila ng galit ko sa kanila, papsok at papasok sa isipan ko na mahal nila ako and I should not do that. Na kahit sabihin kong may mga pagkukulang sila sa amin, mas malaki yung pagkukulang ko sa kanila bilang anak.

They are my strengths and at the same time my weaknesses. I’m selfish, I’m loud, I maybe the perfect description for being a bad daughter, pero sa kabila nito, they are still there for me at sila yung masasabi kong when the whole world turns there back from me, sila at sila parin yung yayakap sa akin at magsasabing nandun lang sila. I’m big enough to make some of the decisions in my life, time is really running so fast and I admit that I’ve wasted so much time not caring for them. Thank you Ma’am is all I can say.

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