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Everyone experiences anxiety. It is a natural reaction to fearful situations, because we are all scared of something. I just happen to be scared of everything. When I was 10, I wiped my hands every time I touched someone because I believed their germs would infect me with a disastrous disease. I had my first panic attack when I was 13; I thought that I had stopped breathing for about 20 minutes, which would have been impressive if I was underwater, but I never learned to swim after the death of my sister’s friend-- she drowned in a lake. After my parents were in a car accident, I could not get into a car without the thought of death hovering over my mind. Whenever someone holds my hand, I have to tell them to be aware of my sweaty hands.
It took me a while to realize that these weren’t just quirky qualities that I had inherited throughout my childhood-- it was an anxiety disorder. I began to recognize that my anxiety was a barrier in my life the day I broke down crying while taking a test in my …show more content…
Change revealed that I was growing, so I began to grow. I realized that I believing that I would be attacked by germs when someone touched me was my brain’s way of telling me that I was uncomfortable with the person touching me, so now I know to speak up. I learned to listen to myself and be assertive. My panic attacks may never go away, but I can do my best to prevent them. I learned to accept that some things cannot be changed entirely. My brother-in-law gave me my first swimming lesson two summers ago, and the first rule was to stay calm. I learned to let what I cannot control wash away. When I get into a car, I say my prayers and let God guide my mind. I learned to strengthen my faith and put my trust in God. I still tell people be aware of my sweaty hands, so they know what to expect, not because I think they will judge me. I learned to trust others more

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